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handful_ofdustI'm at least six episodes into Clarice now, and loving it more and more, especially when it lets her go hog-wild on people, losing that tightly watchful, dignified, singular version of control she usually holds so hard to. Much like Jodie Foster, Rebecca Breeds is a tiny little woman whose physical delicacy seems to come from want and drive rather than any sort of indulgence--she's what people in Gangs-era New York would've called a "skinball," someone frozen in place due to verge-of-starvation. Her hunger for advancement, the thing He Who Will Never Be Named In This TV Show aptly fingered as the thing everything else in her life revolves around, has its roots deep in her Appalachian background...and the interesting thing they've already had Ardelia Mapp not quite comment on is how it's not only a bootstrap bullshit This Is America pose/item of faith, but it also has a lot to do with Poor White Trash resentment, which in turn has a lot to do with some gross, well-hidden belief that if she only had the money/cred she could show how ready she was born to wield the sort of societal power which "ought to" come with her lack of melanin.
Up until now, they've bonded on the shared basis of being able to study/work harder than everyone around them and ace the tests because they know nothing's ever going to be handed to them. But from Ardelia's POV, things are already being handed to Clarice, things she hasn't even asked for or wanted to ask for. She's being put in positions where she will inevitably shine, which is a form of grooming granted her because she's a tiny, ultra-upright little skinball with a hard-edged accent and piercing eyes. And she can't deny it, and they both know it, which is why Ardelia doesn't ever want to be put in the position to demand she deny it. It's fascinating to watch. PLEASE, renew this: Please, please, please.
(I also keep having dreams in which Will Graham and Clarice meet, which is never going to happen, unless they somehow cobble two expys together for the new show. That's why I usually slot in Mapp as Hannibal's potential Clarice expy, though I guess that isn't going to happen now either.)
Otherwise, the dryer is fixed, we're keeping to smaller loads done more regularly, and tomorrow I have another interview where people are actually going to want to see me as well, which is unnerving. I know I'm heavier than I was, and I wasn't exactly small last March. Ah well: Vanity of vanities, all is vanity.
Up until now, they've bonded on the shared basis of being able to study/work harder than everyone around them and ace the tests because they know nothing's ever going to be handed to them. But from Ardelia's POV, things are already being handed to Clarice, things she hasn't even asked for or wanted to ask for. She's being put in positions where she will inevitably shine, which is a form of grooming granted her because she's a tiny, ultra-upright little skinball with a hard-edged accent and piercing eyes. And she can't deny it, and they both know it, which is why Ardelia doesn't ever want to be put in the position to demand she deny it. It's fascinating to watch. PLEASE, renew this: Please, please, please.
(I also keep having dreams in which Will Graham and Clarice meet, which is never going to happen, unless they somehow cobble two expys together for the new show. That's why I usually slot in Mapp as Hannibal's potential Clarice expy, though I guess that isn't going to happen now either.)
Otherwise, the dryer is fixed, we're keeping to smaller loads done more regularly, and tomorrow I have another interview where people are actually going to want to see me as well, which is unnerving. I know I'm heavier than I was, and I wasn't exactly small last March. Ah well: Vanity of vanities, all is vanity.
